The Adventures Begin – Mother’s Day 2021

Proclaiming what God had done for me!

My story to Christ started as a young girl. I heard sermons preached about Heaven and Hell. In fear of hell I asked God to save me. I was baptized but was not communicating with Christ. I began in my own strength and works to live. Everything was about the law and the rules and all done with fear. I fell short.

At 22 years old, Christ showed up in my mess asking for control and ownership of the mess. I gave Him true submission and began to let His leadership govern me.

Col. 2:13  says the Holy Spirit quickened me meaning reanimating conjointly me with Him. I was finally reconnected to Christ for my original created purpose of walking with God, talking with God and reflectively modeling and shining what comes from that connection.

Are you connected to God like this? You can be.

Proclaiming God’s goodness to me!

The Holy Spirit began to renovate and to put Christ in the cornerstones of my very heart. This was done so that all the weight of my life could rest upon Him.

Ps. 107:1,2 says to give thanks for God’s goodness which I began to do.

Rom. 2:4 reminded me of God’s kindness and how He takes me by my hand leading me in these life changes.

It was here I chose to respond to Christ and build with Him. I asked myself questions like,

• What am I building in my life today?
• What is my building focus in my family today?
• What am I striving for in my marriage today?
• What am I working for today at my job?
• What am I trying to accomplish in Ministry today?

1 Pet. 2:6 says if I believe on Christ I will not be confounded. I chose to have confidence in and to trust Christ. Because I began to do this I could walk out of my past confoundedness with God leading me by the hand.

Proclaiming God’s strength in my weakness!

I had so many structures that I had built in my 22 years of living on this earth doing it my way. I had confounding feelings of being ashamed and inadequate. I was afraid of someone outdoing me or surpassing me. I had a huge loss of respect toward people which showed up in my actions throughout my lifetime. I had so much shame which led me to be deceived in the hope that I could work enough or put in enough effort to really change things by doing. I had strongholds that were set up for survival. I had mindset patterns that were not Godly kingdom rooted.

All of this building had been fortified with garrisons of the enemy. I had thoughts constantly running through my mind to keep the established strongholds and separating structures intact. I was confused a lot as to why my expectations were not working. Everything became so fuzzy in the details so that I could not identify the individual roots and causes.

I realized that my 22 years of building my life this way was skewed because I was looking through earthly glasses. This destroyed the ability to see clearly God’s view on how to build correctly. I began to ask God to help me!

I asked God to make me a Proverbs 31 woman. I dreamed of success in the things not in the people. Prov. 31:11 says that the husband safely trusts in his wife. My husband could not trust in me because you only trust in what you know. I was so walled up and confounded that I couldn’t get to myself much less let him in to get to the real me. 

I protected myself and my weaknesses with anger. I pointed the finger and blame at him just like in the first garden in the Bible. My husband did not feel safety and trust toward me. He felt hurt and attacked.

This is where God began to hold my hand and help me walk with Him to discover forgiveness. I began to forgive myself. I began to trust God so I could choose forgiveness for others which began redeeming in me those places. I began to take down the walls with God and open up to be known.

It is so amazing how the Lord did this. My life was like Mark 11. I praised and worshiped the Lord Jesus as He came into the places in my heart. I looked good at face value. But when Jesus got close and personal he found me to be without fruit in areas. He cursed the old mindsets and I felt the pain of them dying and withering away. In my weaknesses He spoke so that the old ways could die and new kingdom life with fruit would come. 

He did not stop there. Just like in Mark 11, Jesus began to overturn the tables of where I had sold my time to. He turned over the tables of what I had bought that filled up my spaces of rest. He threw out the enemy and what had put me in debt, enslavement, and starved me of connection to Him and others. He scattered every seat the enemy had sat as a judge in me which caused my finger pointing attitude.

He also like in verse 16 no longer left me alone to do all the work but led me to just BE His. He showed me His strength in His truth. Taught me to speak what was written. Allowed my entire being to become a place of prayer connection to Him. It is here that I let down my walls for Him to go in and redeem, rescue and set free all that had been plundered, robbed, and traded to the enemy and destruction.

Nahum 1:3 encouraged me to see God differently than the little girl in me that was scared and afraid did.

Prov. 10:25 let me know that the storms in my life God could have His way in if I would stay connected and continue to trust Him. I had to let God get to the bottom of it all. I had to let Him into everything everywhere.

Do you feel the chaos and upheaval of life tossing and blowing you around like I did? There was one more thing that made such a difference to me.

I want to tell you about God’s love!

Back in Proverbs 31 and verse 21 it says that she was not afraid. I was afraid.

I had this mindset that if I had enough money, enough time, enough things, enough knowledge, enough help, enough picture-perfect perfection that I would feel secure and I would become not afraid. I was so wrong.

In the fall of 2019 my family received the news that my mother-in-law would be living the last year of her life and would need constant care. The family began to coordinate that care and my part was to be with her on my one and only day off from work as a hairstylist and a homeschooler. My son, who was a senior, was also attending college to graduate with his AA degree. I was his educator and his transportation to college and his senior class events. My husband worked out of town during the week so I was the one to do this.

I was not in good health having worked with Dr’s over several years to correct a low blood count and anemia problem. To say I was tired was an understatement. I really did not have enough of anything!

In the middle of this life storm God pulled me close and began to whisper to me to begin writing down the reflections of what He was saying and showing to me. He wanted me to not only write them down but to compile them into a four book seasonal series. I was not to wait but to do it NOW!

Matt. 11:28,29 said for me to stop doing my ways. I chose to become yoked to Him and His pace and His lead and His ways.

February 2020 I submitted the first book titled “Winter in the Gardens of our Hearts” to a publisher for consideration. They accepted the book and I began with contract the publishing process. While the world was sent home for covid, I walked with God in His Love!

The book was completed thanks to Christian Faith Publishing and can now be purchased in places like Amazon, Apple, and Barnes and Noble.

John 3:16, 17 gives me the truth that God loves me and did not come to condemn me but that through Jesus and with Him I am saved. I no longer just believe on Him but I believe in Him. Because of His love for me I do not have to be afraid anymore. I no longer have to listen to the enemy. I do not have to think in the past. I am loved and I am free!

Do you have this? I pray that as you have read this that the Lord has introduced to you truth. I bless you to choose Him and His love in Jesus’ Name.